one of my friends ~ ramai sebenarnye ~ almost all jugak r actually,are baffled at some of my idiosyncrasies. which means some unique habits that distinguished me for who I am.fancy word?sorry,that's just my OTHER idiosyncrasy.okay,forget that.what is this 'idiosyncrasies' again
#1 : I like to sing.Particularly old silly rhymes or children's or campfires,puisi atau apa shj that suit my mood.
#2 :Sometimes,bila lupa lirik,I just end it with..umm..'dan lain2 lagi?'or 'et cetera3' dan yg sewaktu dgnnya
#3 :Bila dgr siren ambulans,1st thing yg akan ckp? "sapelah yang beranak tgh jalan tu..." '=,=
actually I'm posting in correspondence to an article read in my friend's blog,about positivity.so,habit2 ni,I picked up from my family.my parents in particular.my mother ajar muzik skolah rendah,dan aktif Scout zaman muda2 dulu.so her reservoir of lagu sangaaaaaattt banyak.imagine,doing your chores in the morning to "Istana Ratu'~bet half of you tak tau pun lagu tu wujud.so my siblings and I alwaaays sing,or hum,or whateverlah.ada satu proverb : "Those who wish to sing always find a song." Which literally mean that those yang cari happiness akan jumpa apa yg mereka cari.About the second habit,I got that from my Mr Papa.Umm,my third one too. He's a teacher di SMK Abdul Jalil ~ and yes both my parents are teacher.*sigh* At first tak faham kenapa, then I understood.My father unconsciously taught us that while you CANNOT change the music -- that's the greatest violation ever--you have the power to continue the song in your own way.Contohnya maybe lagu tu kata ujian yg ditempuhi tu tak terkira,but instead of habiskan kat situ je,I can say that I finally succeed.The third habit,I ask my mom "nape beranak?nape tak accident ke ?" Madam Mama answered simply
: that's another of your father optimism.instead of saying,"ade orang mati ke?",he said what he said.He expected   good fortune and hope in the form of a good news ~ the birth of another human. saya tanya lagi "kalau baby yang lahir tu dah besar jd jahat?".My mother only smiled and say "tapi tak semestinya kan?"
Simple how my parents taught us to be cheerful,and I won't forget how my grandma scolded me bila dahi berkerut tengah panas.She said : the wrinkles  will come,why must haste? And she taught me to smile instead. So actually,the choice is in your hand,really.Whether you want to smile or what,choose.Remember
                 Two men looked out from behind the prison bars
                     One saw the ground and the other see the stars


                                       Which are you?

aku dah tak kira,i have to let this out,and so listen.:

#1:we should never met.it's against logic;utterly and absolutely~yet i never regretted it.not a moment since nor a moment soon.if any,why haven't we met earlier?

#2:i miss you --- is it that hard to take in?i lost you,my dearest friend.i recalled that once upon a time,you'd trust me enough to cry,where had that trust gone?what had happen to us that took you away?

#3:i've always lost my friends.when i met you,i said i'll hold on forever.i promised you that,but it wasn't me stepping away,but you gone far.that's the only thing i could promise,that when you return,here i am :)

#4:we started our friendship with tears and tempers ~ yeah i admit it wasn't a very good one,but hey,we worked that out?didn't we?

#5:you must hate me by now,huh?when i don't have the slightest reason for you to.okay,sorry for that spit the other day--but really,why?

#6:this isn't the first time though,that someone did this to me.friends one day and suddenly,we're strangers the next.and am i that disgusting that none will tell me why they left?only,it's puzzling as to why they even bothered to be close in the first place.but i thought that you're different ~ or are you?

#7:*sigh*just this,i'll always be here,okay?whether you decided to return,or not,i'll still be here.waiting for the day i can have my friend back.waiting for you,for those smiles that reached your eyes.for the beautiful lady inside to come back.

            so that's it,i just miss you.remember that once you scolded me for won't admitting i miss you?there now :i miss you ineffably enough.okay?