seeing that I must...

jika semut itu boleh berusaha,bagaimana saya tidak?

I never was like, really love academics.Quite the opposite actually.I always loved practical stuffs, meddling with things in my hands.I got tired of the long hours we spend on our butts in class.All along, I've only been scraping along.How did I managed to still not get kicked out of Maahad Hamidiah?Suddenly jumping to the top classes?Don't ask me~I never knew the answer,seriously.During UPSR,I struggled at the last minutes 'cause my mom threatened me with the cane.*shivers.PMR?Forget it.I don't even study.This year,I'll sit for the exam said to will be determining my life.S.P.M. *double shivers.Igot sick at how nobody will listen.All that matters is how many A+ will I score.Which university will I end up in.What hotshot job will I land.How much will I make....Hey,people,do those really matter?Here I am,typing away at this keyboard,basically yelling out my sentiments in a world that doesn't care,and my scary SPM only like,4 months away.Not really,  my trial is some two months away,see?And I don't think I'll even give a damn to that.Only that,the other day, someone (quite) close to me broke the news that her mom will make her transfer after PMR,for scholarship's sake,apparently.That made me sad. :'(  Very much so.That gave me a resolution : I'll study really,really  hard and score a straight A+ in my trial.And I'l apply for some major-domo-degrees that actually fit me as who I am.Why am I studying for someone?Doesn't even make sense.....huhhh.But my theory is that :Allah let this happen to make me want to success.He's giving me another opportunity.And I won't waste this.I am  clever.Hardworking when i set my mind to.I can do this.You'll see.I'll make you see....